For a long time I tried to understand the difference between existing and living.
We can all be placed inside the expression “the flight from pain and the chase after pleasure”…, and that expression defines the comfort zone, which, once we have it, becomes the most precious aspect of our life…, and the more wonderful it is, the more precious it becomes…
Only that, as we keep it and use it…, we become more and more unsatisfied, more anxious…
The search for pleasure… has as its reference the first time you tasted it…, in fact we long for the substances released in the brain, but we remain at the first level of obtaining them.
The problem is that we try to find pleasure on the same road on which we met it…, and we do not realize that we need more of it, or more often, only to admit that we still do not perceive it as at our first tastings…, few go past the way in which they look for pleasure…, they do not realize that the first methods were suited to that period of existence and of awareness, and that afterwards the model has to be refined, the way of obtaining them.
I arrived here trying to relive the joy that had been given to me, at various moments, and I found that the sensation had spoiled. In the meantime I had had others of greater intensity (or of greater weight), and going then to those I found that they too are at least slightly spoiled, what I perceive from memories no longer brings the same lived feeling…
And then the joys I brought to others “struck me”…, their state of emotion, which produced my joy…, that one was almost as intense…, I cannot say that it does not lose intensity, but not in the same measure as my own joys, and in any case they are far more alive than my own joys, made by me or by others…
On the other hand…, fears…, with me they stay as intense as the first time they came…, so what is fine loses its intensity, what is bad holds…, thinking about how I deal with this…, I found the reference of making small, unexpected joys for those around me…, that keeps me, in memories too, with plenty of satisfactions and joy…
I am not trying to convince you. But if you have a measure of your own, I would like to hear it…
Further: Respect
