It happens that I am among the lucky ones who had a share of shared love, the completely disinterested kind, which began as a craving (I would like to taste „this”), and evolved into something that was „to be savoured”, every moment…
The period passed, there is no sense in telling you why, or how…, what is certain is that I had this…, when I had that love it seems I was floating, not stepping, I was lighter, better, in general more…, even more optimistic I could say.
When the conjuncture no longer existed, I put to myself the question of what I had had brought out into the light. That goodness was in me beforehand…, only that I had not had occasion, or had not seen fit, to bring it out into the light. It came out towards one person, without asking permission, without my realizing that it had come out…
Then I realized that I was behaving better, gentler…, with everyone, not only with the person in question.
The „more” (good) part had the tendency to change back into the other me, even into „a grey” that was darker…, and I decided, in the 2nd second after I realized — it took me 1 second to gather myself from the realization —, I will be just as good further on if I can, alone…, because that part is in me and I can cultivate it and keep it at the surface…
Do you know how (I think) I managed?, through admiration…, the part that keeps any relationship in good parameters…, it starts from the personal respect you have towards yourself.
* I wrote „I think” because it is not finished, and it has no way of finishing. It is not teamwork — there is hardly anyone to lean over me and tell me honestly what is going on with my attitude. When I come across one, I find out how much work I still have. And I do have.
Admiring everything I received, the whole way in which everything I gave was received…, admiring the fact that I myself was transformed, etc…
And when you realize that you always have something to learn…, sometimes you feel like kissing a child’s hand — where I come from the hand is kissed upwards, to the old and to the priest — because you have seen in him some things that you have too, only you do not use them.
And if you make no use of admiration, it no longer matters what else you have, because no long-lasting relationship will work…
Then there is also the result of the work with myself, the one in which I clearly localized a few „triggers”, I solved a few problems unidentified until then…, the good part comes with more and more good, even when the initial conjuncture disappears, the whole thing is to know how to use it, to concentrate on what you and others have found good in you…, and to cultivate…
I know for sure that there are people good by definition, warm…, they are the biggest winners.
I am not trying to convince you. But if you have a measure of your own, I would like to hear it…
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